Devil's Bread

I can't ignore it man
I can't ignore it man
No
Man
I don't wanna put away
I don't wanna put away
But I don't want to ruin my life

I'm trying to live my own theology but I'm still confronted by my own hypocrisy
I've lost count of all the ways I contradict the things I say in things I pray
And when I recite from my own Bible against my own Christ
Man I love Him to the core but it's still a struggle trying to love Him even more
Yes I wanna finish well never bring shame
And never sprinkle dirt on the son of God's name
I wanna stand firm I wanna end strong
But I be so afraid that I'm gonna end wrong
And provide for my self again and supply for my selfish sin
In spite of the knowledge You are a perfect friend
Lord hold me up I know You hear me praying saying

I don't wanna put away
I don't wanna put away
But I don't want to ruin my life

How is it that if something being loved with the taste scrape crumbs off the plate
Let none go to waste keep eating in it eating in it take a drink eating in it
Bout a week later put none to your face exact same ingredients numb to the taste
Is my tongue in the way am I dark am I fake
Or am I just exhausted appetite lost it is my heart cold or is it just frosted
How long is my crave is is my hunger my thirst is
Having a relapse for idol God worship
I know this is dangerous wrong and deceit but it's looking so sweet like bon-a-petit
I know God is my Father and I am His son
He provides for me I should not jump the gun
Said I know this is dangerous wrong and deceit but it's looking so sweet like bon-a-petit
Voila
Then I have to tell myself He was tempted to provide for Himself too
Dry desert no food forty days forty nights think His appetite
Wasn't like Eve's or the Israelites or like yours or like mine
Then the serpent came right time right lies
But He chose to be father not fed make the same choice resist the devil's bread

I don't wanna put away
Don't wanna put away
I don't want to ruin my life
Here we go