Learning To Hate You As A Self Defense Mechanism

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you're on the phone
with someone who doesn't know
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about your soul and how it
can't be held by flesh and bone
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and i guess that's fine
i would never want you to
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stop your life
but when i saw you both
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with your shoulders touching
sitting so close

[Verse 2]
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i knew i'd hold on to this feeling
i'd hold on to anything at all
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was it my fault
because i easily confused you
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for someone who would hold my hand
when things got hard
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when things got dark
because oh my god
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when they get dark
they get so dark

[Verse 3]
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you were always a shitty friend
and you would leave when i got sick
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you never called me on my birthday
i want to call you on your birthday
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so i'll hold on to this feeling
i'll hold on to this hate
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for as long as i need
for it to help me