Exile Is a Habit

You're probably due an explanation
Could be you've even been forgetting me
Well I can't say I really blame you
I've always let time get ahead of me

All of my brokenhearted friends
All of my enemies and nemeses
I'd love to see you all again
But for now my pride will get the best of me

And it's sad but true
My exile is a habit
Some day I'll message you
From my quiet little planet
I'm not sure why
I keep my distance and extend it
I'm scared that I
Won't be what you expected

All these impermanent connections
Born out of unavailability
I reminisce about the best ones
And it's bittersweet but they still live in me

Yeah, we hang out and share a space and time
Then like eight months later: How're you doing there?
I'm floating in and out of light
But I do adore the times I'm spending there

And it's sad but true
My exile is a habit
Some day I'll message you
From my quiet little planet
I'm not sure why
I keep my distance and extend it
I'm scared that I
Won't be what you expected