Earwax

I'm trying to get
What i need what i want
I'm playing the game
But i missed what i am
Drifted away
I can never win this game
Probably insane
But i'm taking so much pleasure in this pain

I'm just a liar, i'm just a liar
I've lost so many time
For something i'm not
I'm just a liar, i'm just a liar
I've lost so many time

I'm losing my grip
But for the first time alive
Turning on the light
Waking up to my life
Sickness and fever
Both together growing strong
I can't differ right from wrong
My brain is going numb