Addiction / Lucas Beepboop

I find pleasure inside all these little things
The things that people seem to have a real issue with
The needles, drugs, beer I just can't ignore
Yes their harmful
Not to me though

Fills me with a promise
An escape from life
I just can't live without all these things that give me a high

Give me all your needles and your alcohol
I need to feel young
Is that so wrong?

Just a little more I say as I reach for another
Just a little more I think lighting a cigarette
These habits are hard to break as they all raise my self-esteem
And their the only thing keeping me stable I think

Maybe if the hands of time were to teach me a lesson
If and when and only then should I try to stop
Until that day arrives I'll depend my life on drugs and booze
And listen to these thoughts that drive me to the edge

Please give me a purpose
I don't know what's right
And nothing will appease my monstrous appetite

It's ruining my body
Yes, I need some help
As my addictions ruin my health

I have made a promise
I stupidly broke
I'm ruining my life I'm sure we know that

Please, please please forget me
I know I'm mess but this life I've chose
I don't regret

All I want is a little validation
I don't understand your hesitation
Is this a result of inflated ego?
If so spare the tears and fucking let me go

Just a little more I beg
As needles prick my fingers
Just a little more I think
As I tug open wounds

Little habits hard to break
I'm far to gone to be stopped now
It's not like anybody's gonna help me
Break free

I may be deluded but I find comfort in anger
And I don't care if it sends me six feet underneath
Even if the damage done is sadly irreparable
I'll listen to these thoughts inside of me that haunt me

Just a little more I say as I reach for another
Just a little more I think lighting a cigarette
These habits are hard to break as they all raise my self-esteem
And their the only thing keeping me stable I think

Maybe if the hands of time were to teach me a lesson
If and when and only then should I try to stop
Until that day arrives I'll depend my life on drugs and booze
And listen to these thoughts that drive me to the edge