Just what does he have that I don't?

So I practiced those one-liner jokes
But I can't make
You smile though

And I practiced walking how he walks
But it's hard not
To just trip and fall

If I
Could change this voice of mine
Then I'd make it much more refined

If I told you that I loved my life
Then I'm sorry
'Cause I must've lied

My heart is feeling heavy
Overcome with envy
Surely I'm the one who wins on paper?

So now I'm
Praying to God for an answer
Someone tell me
What should I do?

What should I do?
What should I do?
What should I do?
What should I do?

For you
For you
For you
For you
I'd

Cut this stupid hair right off
If it meant that you'd look my way
I would throw my whole damn wardrobe out
If I knew that it'd be worth the change

'Cause I always, always, think of you
Oh, I promise! I swear I do
'Cause I can't help but get flustered when
I know you're not even in the room

Don't wanna bore you
I know you're tired
But I wish
I could inspire
A new desire

A fire
Like how he does
Your eyes light up
Like he put the stars in the sky

Or the Moon up above
Or something
How does he do it?
He makes you laugh
Non-stop!

Is it witchcraft?
So over the top
And I think I could do better
If I knew how to try
But there's no chance for you and I

He says he knows you better
Isn't he a liar?
Surely I'm the one who wins on paper
Or am I not?

You two got together?
I'm not hurt, I'm just surprised
How I feel about it?

Well, I'm great, I'm feeling fine
But of course, that's just a lie
Like always

So now I'm praying to God for an answer
Someone tell me
What should I do
What should I do
What should I do

What should I do
What should I do
For you, for you, for you?

And though I know that this never will matter
I still hope you'll
Just look at me
Just look at me
Just look at me
Just look at me
Just look at me

Oh, please, oh please, oh please
On knees, I'm

Begging you
Look at me
What is it that in him you see
You don't see in me?