Scapegoats

Isn't it strange
How the days and nights seem to blend
Till I just can't see the light anymore?
How I'm trapped in it's spell, all alone, it just hurts

But I'm just here, on my own
All my fears take control, I can't see
Just this primal urge to protect what's left of me

From all sides, it attacks
I can't think
There's no time to step back and link the pain to reality
I just can't hear, I just can't breathe
It's all the same, it all repeats, same old story, same defeats

Up in your feet
Tell the whole world that you ain't been beaten yet
Every melody's indefinite feature set
Buried in rough mixes, soft hisses

Hit-or-miss-es, daft senses in your mind
Making up answers just to be justifyin'
All of the mess that's bested by
Death defying overthinking until it's fine

What your muses gonna do when your quota is overdue
And they see you an easy dude to overthrew
What would you do if they cancel you and then censor you and then slander you
And then banter whoever they accuse just so they can act true

But I just keep trying all the same
Not understanding due to pain
That there's nothing left to say, they'll never listen
Just obey the blind command
Of one who sits with hoards of mindless drones to use as fits

I'm just a scapegoat, nothing more
The perfect victim to abhor
Betrayed by everyone I knew
Until I have no one left to help me

Deal with all these thoughts I'm thinking
Of the only true escape
A way to free me from this hate
But leave destruction in my wake

I say one day
I may have a say on who I wanna be
Like Jessie Siren I'ma feel the sway
To the messy barren sounds that decays

But not now though, the fuck you know
About the feeling of being alone
In the low, seen as foe, cast a stone, told to go
Only to watch their fame grow
As you only get old

I wanna say that life's a curse
But the guy next door he had it worse
But they made it, succeeded
Got even more things completed
Without feeling so defeated

I just don't care
There's nothing left for me
My present barren
Future unseen and no matter what I do
Life won't have meaning like theirs do

In the end, I'm nothing more
Than just an spec of dust in the grand scheme of humanity
I'll be forgotten quickly
Only remembered as the scapegoat
Perfect victim, Reson Lore, no longer me

You know?
Do continue

It seems I'm truly doomed to fail
I cannot even do what everyone is begging me to
I'm just a failure, through and through
The water brought me no solace
I'm doomed to endure this violent torture til the end of time
Or when they all get bored of me and destroy another's restless mind

You're finished?

Yet life ain't done, you know
Way too soon to put down a frown, you know
I swear you'll be on a better place, better phase
With a brighter face than right now, you know

I know this 'cause I confess
It's hard to express how you've grown so fast
To a point what the annoying voice said to your head
Won't make any sense in retrospect that's a fact

Give your peers and yourself more time
Five or four years to reach your prime
Even steadier if you age it like a wine
Just don't disappear and you might settle in fine

Let the time slowly pass, then look at your past
And you'll wonder why'd you bother being this upset
Well I gotta go now
We'll talk some other time, yeah?
Bye