Nocturnal Misanthropy

"Suicidal"

Sitting alone in the darkness
With nothing but a razorblade
Staring into the broken mirror
Looking upon the wounds ive made

Life was so treacherous
An eternal sensation of pain
This madness brought me nothing
Its hopeless, i have nothing to gain

All i have is this darkness
Theese tears gives me the will
It helps me to find comfort
Searching for all voids to fill

What is there left of me to despise
When the darkness abbandons me
Do i deserve all this emptiness
Why cant i just be set free

This empty shell of hate towards myself
Only expresses this strong desire to die
Theres a spark missing in my inner
I feel no need to this live in this lie

everything blackened
when light turn to grief
all i feel is this sorrow
an euphoria so brief

The wounds in my wrists
Blood is dripping in a puddle on the floor
All this fucking pain, release me!
I cant take this shit called life anymore

Is this my reality?
I can no longer tell
Did i deserve this?
Did i create this hell?

"Agony"

You're the sorrow
Dripping from my eye
The pain inside me
My screams as i die

Feel my heart beat
Take away my pain
Please make it stop
Get out of my brain

I cried an ocean
And i gave it your name
You are the sorrow
thats driving me insane

No tomorrow
The future is dead
Sleepingpills and razors
All alone in my bed

Cries and wishes
All in vain
Blood on the floor
Take away my pain

Everything i felt
Im dying inside
So empty
suicide..

"Winds of despair"

A gentle breeze fills my soul
Inhaling the winds of despair
Whispering words of salvation
Carrying my screams through the air
Twisting the screams into nothing
Listening to these winds of despair

Whispers of feeling
Whispers of being
whispers of rain

Angst possessing my every limb
Telling my hands what to do
To destroy the shards of a broken past
Destroying the pieces of you

The moonlight reflects no more
Then my tired and so empty stare
Turning whispers into actions
watch these winds of despair

Whispers of feeling
Whispers of being
Whispers of rain

Flashing eyes in every shade of grey
Which my eyes still see
Death and i shall become one
is the only option for me

Some things never change
The destruction still remain
Listening to the winds of despair
As im set free from this pain