Temporary Heaven

Electric pulse bleeding into my veins
I dress my pain up just to feel okay
Every smile feels a little rehearsed
But it's better than the silence getting worse

I've been dragging myself through crowded rooms
Trying to outrun what I already know
If I move fast enough, I don't feel the weight
If I stay numb, I don't have to explain

I don't wanna talk about tomorrow
I don't wanna hear what's true
If this high is all I borrow
Let me waste it here with you

Take me to a temporary heaven
Where the hurt can't follow me inside
I know the fall is waiting when the night ends
But right now, I just wanna feel alive
Let the music drown the questions
Let the lights rewrite my breathing
I know this isn't salvation
But it feels like heaven for the moment
For the moment

There's a crack in every laugh I fake
I feel the dark behind every escape
I keep my heart on airplane mode
No signals getting through my soul

I'm not healed, I'm just distracted, every second, I'm still fractured
But when the bass drops, so do I, for a second, I forget why I cry
Don't say it won't last forever, I already know the truth
Just let me pretend I'm better, just tonight, just me and you

Take me to a temporary heaven
Where the hurt can't follow me inside
I know the fall is waiting when the night ends
But right now, I just wanna feel alive
Let the music drown the questions
Let the lights rewrite my breathing
I know this isn't salvation
But it feels like heaven for the moment

I know the morning's gonna hurt like hell
I know I'm running from myself
But if this is all the peace I get
Let me stay in it a little longer yet
I'm tired of surviving every day
If joy's a sin, I'll take the blame
I don't need forever, I just need now
I don't need fixing, oh, pull me out

Temporary heaven, temporary high
I don't wanna feel it when the feeling dies
Temporary heaven, hold me inside
If I'm falling later, let me fly tonight
Take me to a temporary heaven, even if it's fragile, even if it lies
I'll face the truth when the Sun gets in
Just don't wake me up tonight
Let the rhythm hold my shaking
Let me feel like I'm not breaking
I know this isn't salvation
But it feels like heaven for the moment
For the moment