Writer In The Dark

I read this ending over a hundred times
I know how it works
So I won't cry anymore

But I still keep wondering why
If I always knew about this story
Because my tears fall
And you're the only one who doesn't know

You will never be able to understand the heart
Of a writer in the dark

I'm tired of feeling like I'm tolerated
With his three years of experiences feeling the best
Like I can't reach you

I send you a message
Waiting for an answer
I see my cell phone screen from second to second
Thinking I'm the only one for you

I read this ending over a hundred times
I know how it works
So I won't cry anymore

You will never be able to understand the heart
Of a writer in the dark
Because I want someone
To say I love you

You will never be able to understand the heart
Of a writer in the dark
Falling apart

After everything you put me through
Why am I still afraid of losing you?