Apathetic Lacrymae

Are you trying to walk
Into this deserted soul?
For I am made of sand
You can try to make bricks from this sand
To slowly rebuild my heart

There's no remembrance
Of what once so alive turned apathetic
There is no way

To rekindle that fire, it is extinguished
Forever, buried in grudge and disillusion
A heart of stone so fragile at the same time
Stay away from me

Don't look at me
Don't fall in love with me
Trust me I'm not the one
I'm sorry to let you down

I have not always been like this
There was a time when everything was different
There was a time when I still had courage

I hurt myself just to feel, again
Make me feel alive, again
Everything means nothing
There is no one I really care for
I have nothing, nothing to give you