ed sheeran songs without crying (hesitant)

How long is too long till I move on
When can I listen to Ed Sheeran songs without crying
Those were our songs
I know you’re happier
But I'm thinking out loud

Every time it feels like it doesn’t hurt
I go inside my room I see the sweatshirt
The one you bought me
And it haunts me
Why don’t you want me?
Maybe after graduation

I'm hesitant, I'm hesitant
Like I'm not really sure that I want this anymore
And like a pessimist, like a pessimist
What if I hurt you more now than I did before?
I think it’s evident it’s evident
That I'm not who I used to be
And now you’re acting all
Hesitant, hesitant
Hesitant, hesitant

How soon is too soon to meet someone new?
What if I kiss her and I still think of you
Is it normal? I feel awful
But I'm just curious
Does it stay this way forever
Now I'm eating dinner with this other girl
She’s talking all night long I'm in my own world
I can’t stop
You’re all I think about
Is this a comeback
With nothing to come back to

I'm hesitant, I'm hesitant
Like I'm not really sure that I want this anymore
And like a pessimist, like a pessimist
What if I hurt you more now than I did before?
I think it’s evident it’s evident
That I'm not who I used to be
And now you’re acting all
Hesitant, hesitant
Hesitant, hesitant

Why you gotta be so hesitant, hesitant?

I'm hesitant, I'm hesitant
Like I'm not really sure that I want this anymore
And like a pessimist, like a pessimist
What if I hurt you more now than I did before?
I think it’s evident it’s evident
That I'm not who I used to be
And now you’re acting all
Hesitant, hesitant
Hesitant, hesitant

I know you’re happier
But I'm thinking out loud
I’ll hold on to the photographs
Of days where we were perfect
'Cause ever since I’ve been hesitant