Junkie

Break the tab off my cold beer
My beard always gets caught
It tugs on me like all my problems
Another beer I bet I'll solve 'em
So I'll pay the tab at this dive bar
I took too many shots
A healthy tip for making me dull
Let's pretend I'm still in full control
As if my emotions can only be suppressed
By the chemicals I breathe right into my chest
I always need to mess up perception
To endure reality

'Cause I'm some kind of junkie
Trying to escape all the pain within me
Sucking on my vape when it's well past empty
Using what I can just to keep on numbing
Yeah, I'm some kind of junkie
You won't be surprised when my vices kill me
Fall into the deep end watch me sink in
It's really hard to swim with this drink in my hand
Drink in my hand

So I'll start my car with my remote
Wade through Chicago snow
You always said I'm the best driver
Every time we have a bender
But I never saw the truck headlights
Shining right through my hands
Through the windshield we'll both dance
Maybe always meant to end like this
As if my emotions can only be suppressed
By the chemicals I breathe right into my chest
I always need to mess up perception
To endure reality

'Cause I'm some kind of junkie
Trying to escape all the pain within me
Sucking on my vape when it's well past empty
Using what I can just to keep on numbing
Yeah, I'm some kind of junkie
You won't be surprised when my vices kill me
Fall into the deep end watch me sink in
It's really hard to swim with this drink in my hand
Drink in my hand