Carry a White Flag

Pull out my hair for fun
And run my nails right down my face
Wake up disoriented almost every single day
Wishing each dream I had was real
Finding out they're not and that I'm trapped in here
With myself in my room alone
You may think life is fun
But sometimes I don't see it that way
I started medication, weaned myself off
That happiness was artificial and fake
Don't you agree?
If my happiness has to be forced then it wasn't meant to be

I don't wanna force it I'm fine
Listen when I say I wanna die
With at least a quick release of every bad thing
That has ever happened to me

Take my hand to the end
I wanna see it all fall
I wanna watch my mind break with it

My mind is melting
From things around it
Like caskets buried
With dirt around them
I tried to climb out
But I fell back in
I'll put up white flags
To tell them I give in