Seeking Out Gold (The Former)

I want to find comfort in the air
I want to feel
I want to love
I want to care about anything as much as everyone cares about everything

But the hardest habits to break are the ones that we know are keeping us in place

I wish I could break myself down and start again
I'll reconstruct the cavity inside my chest
Replace whatever is left with something that still beats
I want to do more than just breathe to stay alive

I want to fall in line
I want to fall in love
I want a reason to think reason is enough
I am not blind and you are not a liar, so tell me where is this faith I can't seem to find in anything?

I want to believe in anything