Staring at my ceiling Convince myself it’s nothing Pray to God to fix me Feeling guilty having thoughts at 12 years old Is momma gonna like this, I'm risking her of grandkids Seven years of fighting And I don’t wanna fight no more So I wanna let it out Wasn’t ready then But I'm ready now I want my friends to know me Like really, really know me I hope this doesn’t change things They say that boys don’t cry But news flash, that’s a lie I don’t fit inside your boxes I can’t stop this no So I'm counting down Unlock my cell And come on out Oh my Beautiful bliss I'm so foreign to this Tell you what my walls know Here’s my first hello Oh my Such a relief I can be me I don’t put on no show It’s my first hello All that I said All that I did I learned to lock my thoughts up carefully I held my breath I broke my heart I bit my tongue It’s start's to bleed And I I hope You know That it’s not your fault Hope my father understands I'm not any less a man Oh my Beautiful bliss I'm so foreign to this Tell you what my walls know Here’s my first hello Oh my Such a relief I can be me I don’t put on no show It’s my first hello I wanna let it out Wasn’t ready then But I'm ready now