For You

For so long
I've been giving myself a hard time
And I've been neglecting everything in my life
'Cause I'm too proud
(And it makes me sick)
(And it makes me)

I wanna be able to talk about what's going on when my head is in the dirt
Instead of just smile and say I'm fine to all the people that give me their
Time
I'm getting overwhelmed with this shit
Oh man it's fucking tough
Yeah
For me to speak about
You've done enough for me so far, just leave me alone

Can't you see what it's doing to me?
I'm getting choked up
So take note
I've got it locked away in hell
I told you
Man, I'm doing just fine on my own
So step back

For so long
I've been giving myself a hard time
And I've been neglecting everything in my life
'Cause I'm too proud of myself
To speak up when I'm suffering
Man, it makes me sick
Look at you

Man, it makes me sick to my guts
Look what it's done to me
I'm breaking down 'cause I need someone to listen to me
Fuck you
You're what I want to be
I " m seeing people that are so much stronger than me
How do you do it? Enjoying everything
It took a lot for me to leave the fucking house again
So what I'm saying is
So what I'm saying is, I'm fucking struggling

Yeah
I just need
I just need
I need help to get back the pieces I've lost along the way
I just need someone to tell me it's okay

(I'm still the same person)
(I'm still the same person)
(I just need to find him again)

I've started to break free
I've started to end
My self suffocation is my only friend
The path that I've walked on is showered in hope
The path that I've walked on is showered in hope
'Cause I've carried this weight on my shoulders for so long
And it's beginning to drag me down
I let one bad day in my life define who I am

For a whole year, I've become what I'm not
'Cause I'm not what I think
I've pushed you away but it's not my fault
It's taken me too long to figure it out
'Cause I'm starting to find my way out of the darkness cast on me
I told myself I just need to make it through one more day

Fuck
Fuck