Mum

I saw you in my sleep last night
Chasing after me, riding my first bike
Looking back, so mad you let go
Falling down, scraped knees
Graveled palms, standing there all alone

Your hands let go
Why did you have to leave? I know there’s a reason
Chasing new love
Now you’re someone I’m never gonna know

So sick of watching you running
So sick of grieving your loss
I used to pray that the summer sun
Could warm your bones and pull out all the drugs

I’m sorry mother
I know what you feel when you’re alone
Spent all those years fighting for love
But all it fueled was addiction

Your hands let go
Why did you have to leave? I know there’s a reason
Chasing new love
Now you’re someone I’m never gonna know

So sick of watching you running
So sick of grieving your loss
I used to pray that the summer sun
Could warm your bones and pull out all the drugs
See all the wrong you’ve done
'Cause it’s been three years and I’m still stuck inside your wake
I sat by the door
And I waited for you to come home, but you never came
But you never came

Do you still hear my younger voice? So raspy and pained
Guess you’ll never hear it nowadays
It’s such a shame, oh well
It’s a goddamn shame
So sick of watching you running
So sick of grieving your loss

You were my chrysanthemum, but all went wrong
You faded away like dust
'Cause it’s been three years and I’m still stuck inside your wake
I sat by the door
And I waited for you to come home, but you never came
But you never came