Ordinary Day

All of my life
I've been a fool
Breaking myself
To follow your rules
And I beat myself up
When I can't find the strength
When I can't seem to change
The harder I think
Let me get this straight
Let me feel the weight of an ordinary day
'Cause I've tried to heal this thing
But you let me slip away
When I run away
You just let me run
And I take it too far
By the time I am done
And I understand
I'm thick in the skull
But I'm learning to love
The sound of your call
Let me get this straight
Let me feel the weight of an ordinary day
'Cause I've tried to heal this thing
But you let me slip away
I fear rejection and I up my defenses
I look for healing in the human touch
When will I learn to face the consequences?
Of trying to love you and failing so much
I'm trying to love you but I'm failing so much
Let me get this straight
Let me feel the weight of an ordinary day
'Cause I've tried to heal this thing
But you let me slip away
Let me slip away
Over and over and over again
I'm biting the hand that's pulling me in
Over and over and over again
Believe in the hand that's pulling me in