Waking Up

I used to check my phone before I opened my eyes
Expecting a good morning or some more elaborate lies
I had your ghost living rent-free in the back of my brain
Counting every single drop of the November rain
I thought the silence would be loud, I thought the sky would fall
But honestly, I haven't thought about you much at all

It's not anger, it's not bitterness
It's just, nothingness
And it's the sweetest kind of bliss

It's like I'm finally waking up
The coffee's steaming in my favorite cup
The sun is hitting where the shadows used to stay
And I didn't even notice that you went away
I'm not crying, I'm not trying to be tough
I just realized that I've finally had enough

Saw your brother at the market, he looked a little stressed
He asked me how I'm doing, I said: Better than the rest

Wait, what was your middle name again?
Actually, don't tell me, i don't need to know
I'm busy, doing literally anything else

Yeah, I'm finally waking up
The coffee's steaming in my favorite cup
The sun is hitting where the shadows used to stay
And I didn't even notice that you went away
I'm not crying, I'm not trying to be tough
I just realized that I've finally had enough
Oh, it's a beautiful morning, it's true
Waking up without the weight of you