I used to check my phone before I opened my eyes Expecting a good morning or some more elaborate lies I had your ghost living rent-free in the back of my brain Counting every single drop of the November rain I thought the silence would be loud, I thought the sky would fall But honestly, I haven't thought about you much at all It's not anger, it's not bitterness It's just, nothingness And it's the sweetest kind of bliss It's like I'm finally waking up The coffee's steaming in my favorite cup The sun is hitting where the shadows used to stay And I didn't even notice that you went away I'm not crying, I'm not trying to be tough I just realized that I've finally had enough Saw your brother at the market, he looked a little stressed He asked me how I'm doing, I said: Better than the rest Wait, what was your middle name again? Actually, don't tell me, i don't need to know I'm busy, doing literally anything else Yeah, I'm finally waking up The coffee's steaming in my favorite cup The sun is hitting where the shadows used to stay And I didn't even notice that you went away I'm not crying, I'm not trying to be tough I just realized that I've finally had enough Oh, it's a beautiful morning, it's true Waking up without the weight of you