Lying (feat. Madi Diaz)

I love you and I'm not afraid of trying
I’m not afraid of trying, I wish I was
And I hate 'cause I know I'm really lying
I know I’m really lying and it sucks
I could lay in this bed
Wide awake and upset
And I can make it
But I know that I'd be lying

I'm so tired of living like angels and devils
Always at war with each other
But we're both losing the battle
What did I do?
Remember when you used to need me
Exactly how I used to need you
But you're telling me now you don't want to

I love you and I'm not afraid of trying
I'm not afraid of trying, I wish I was
And I hate ’cause I know I’m really lying
I know I'm really lying and it sucks
I could lay in this bed
Wide awake and upset
And I can make it
But I know that I’d be lying

I know that I'd be lying
I know that I'd be lying
I don't want to
I don’t want to
I don't want to
I don't want to

Your words, burning my heart through the wire
Mountains of gray from the fire
Suppressing the rush of the pain
Will I ever learn?
How to be cold like the winter
How to cover my heart from the blisters
And not cry when I'm seeing your face

I love you and I'm not afraid of trying
I'm not afraid of trying, I wish I was
And I hate 'cause I know I'm really lying
I know I'm really lying and it sucks
I could lay in this bed
Wide awake and upset
And I can make it
But I know that I'd be lying

I don't want to
I don't want to
I don't want to
I don't want to
(I know that I'd be lying)
I don't want to
I don't want to
I don't want to
I don't want to