It's Not Ok

line me up, drag it out…
can you fucking hear me?
i've done the best that i can
can you fucking hear me mom?
you'll never understand
i'm sifting through my head
sinking like a rock for every word i've spit
smashing hammers through my face
bitter and alone, tired and confused
digging for a heart bleeding, tear this chest apart
nothing is worth this pain…
is there still fight left inside and should i even try?
i need a fucking reason
as the nights get longer and longer, i feel my heart grow colder and colder
rotting away in the blackest of earth, burning every page in your book.