When I Had Hope, I Had It All

I hate to say
I hate the way I feel
Where I am now
Is where I aim to be
The bunting is down
The last champagne is empty
I'm stood at the top of
The tallest hill I've ever seen

Isn't anybody trying to find me?

The battle was primed
As were the dreams I felt
Before I reached them all
Before I had nothing left
Now that I'm here
I hate the air I breathe
Getting to where I want
Is the loneliest place I've ever been

Isn't anybody trying to find me now?

'Cause I'm stood on my own, not so good on my own
No, I'm too aware of how much I care
I got to the top, I got what I wanted
I look at the view and I think that it's haunted
There's nobody here, no one to call
The ones that I love know nothing at all
I keep it all in, I don't tell a soul
How ungrateful I'd be if I let it all go

I want to go back to when I had nothing
The drive for it all made me feel something
The less that I had, the less I could fall
And when I had hope, I had it all

Isn't anybody trying to find me now?