(Un)Sympathy

Heart beating rising under skin
Teeth clenched hard, I pull it in

I replay scenes I never saw
Your hands where they should not be
You wore my trust like something cheap
Then came back close still lying to me

You crossed lines quietly at night
While I was holding everything
You lay beside me calm and warm
Breathing like nothing was wrong

How do you sleep so close to me
Carrying all that silently
I was here, I was real
You were already gone

I see it clear now I see the stain you hid
Every breath we share tastes bitter as sin
You touched me with a fire you stole
While I was bleeding out control

I won't carry what you spilled on me
I won't choke on your dishonesty
This ain't love this is the scar
Where I finally break apart

Your promises taste metallic
Like rust stuck deep behind my teeth
You learned new ways to hold a skin
Then brought them back like they were mine

You said you never meant the harm
But words don't clean what you destroy
I thought I was your safest place
You used my heart to pass the time

You don't get back what you burned
You don't come back untouched
I was here, I was real
You were already gone

I see it clear now I see the stain you hid
Every breath we share tastes bitter as sin
You touched me with a fire you stole
While I was bleeding out control

I won't carry what you spilled on me
I won't choke on your dishonesty
This ain't love this is the scar
Where I finally break apart

You held my body after lies
Skin to skin with empty eyes
Tell me how you shut it off
Tell me how you call that love

No blades no fists no violence
Just truth tearing flesh from sense
This is the damage you ignore
When you turn hearts into war

I see it clear now I see who you are
You fed on safety fed on my scars
You came back close you came back cold
Like consequences don't hold

I won't carry what you spilled on me
I won't choke on your dishonesty
This ain't love this is the scar
Where I finally break apart

Heart slows down I stand alone
You lost what never should be thrown