Word Technician

Look you don’t get it
I’ve been infected by venom
It’s like a kick in the sternum
I guess my throat is stuck burning
And now my stomach is turning
Becoming very concerning

So turn my lights off cause my life’s off
Guess my vibe’s wrong

Now my life is gone and all I’ve known is fucking shattered
I look around to see the pieces are forever scattered
Climbing up a ladder shouldn’t even seem to matter
Confusing bastard that only thrives inside disasters

You should go I messed this up
I screamed at you, we had enough
This was so clear, foreign to tears
For many years kicked outa gear

I guess I’ll always have to live in fear
For the day I'm forced to leave the life that I hold dear

I can’t stop
I got no brakes
So I learned not to hesitate
While you could never resonate
Cause I’d just go and levitate

I think you really should assassinate
Before you become a meal on my dinner plate

Every power I’ve been given
Making ash from competition
Always ass like they don’t listen
Only a’s like it’s a mission

In addition my position
All it knows is demolition
Cooking lyrics from the kitchen
Just to gain some recognition

So amazing like I'm fiction
Some will say that I'm a bitch and
My ambition sparks ignitions
Ace-ing all your dumb auditions
Definition of musician
Did you know I'm the magician?
Magic with my words so listen
I'm a fucking word technician

Everything you’ve known of me has washed away!
The smiling, the so outgoing man

I have this sad side that just won’t obey
Still struggling, it’s tugging at my soul

Seems to me you can’t achieve your dreams conceived
Now I can’t breathe, I can’t relieve all

All this pain I’ve got
This migraine that I’ve caught

When you see this isn’t me
It’s so extreme, I need the key
My misery needs

Needs unlocking
Cause this ain’t me talking

Can you see what has happened to me?
This shit is throwing off my chemistry
I'm losing who I want to be

A kick in the teeth
Or maybe between the knees
Now feeling so incomplete
That I can barely compete

From all the demons I’ve fought
Can see the scars that I got
They came hard ready or not
And caught me dead so I’ll rot

I ain't begging for attention
Sobbing at my sad reflection
Never sat well with rejection
Will there ever be redemption

I'm running out of oxygen
While climbing to the top again
This elevation’s sickening
But all of you are listening

I'm running renovations
Competition’s on vacations
Always playing their playstations
Got to feed their damn temptations

I will be your new fixation
After me you’ll need cremation
What a wonderful sensation
Killing you with strangulation

Not with my hands physically
Maybe more mentally
Stacking words grammatically
But far from where I wanna be

Everything you’ve known of me has washed away!
The smiling, the so outgoing man

I have this sad side that just won’t obey
Still struggling, it’s tugging at my soul

Seems to me you can’t achieve your dreams conceived
Now I can’t breathe, I can’t relieve all

All this pain I’ve got
This migraine that I’ve caught

When you see this isn’t me
It’s so extreme, I need the key
My misery needs

Needs unlocking
Cause this ain’t me talking