If Only I Were a Butterfly

Sometimes I don't feel quite myself here
Sometimes I don't feel like it's my home
Would like to be in a place where I'm free
A place I call my own

Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in my spider's web
And each thread is in itself a problem
So I try to break free, untangled then
But I'm back to where I started from

Oh, if only I were a butterfly
I could fly so high
Right past the sky
And let go my fears
Let go my despairs
I would give them to the air
Without a care

I walk alone in the dark
And I wonder through the night
I lie to look up high to see the starry sky
It gives me strength to know
There's peace somewhere up there
So quite, so undisturbed, I'm mystified
In my bed I lie awake
And I'm dreaming of that land
So far away from me
It makes me want to cry
Myself to sleep, with plans that
Pray for the day for I die

Oh, if only I were a butterfly
I could fly so high
Right past the sky
And let go my fears
Let go my despairs
I would give them to the air
Without a care