Blood Blister

I staged your death and then covered all my steps
When I was dreaming
No evidence, left no fingerprints
And no one heard you screaming
Wake up and try

Shake out the feeling that's stuck inside
Sometimes it seems the world had it in for me, it's so defeating
Goddammit what did I do wrong?
Did I deserve it?
Was there some sick and twisted underlying purpose?

Something
Something tells me
That I won't ever really understand it

I watch you die when I close my eyes
But I still hear your whisper
Clean out the shades, the dull pain, and blood
That's underneath the blister

It doesn't stop
Face down and float up to the top
Dead skin and phantom limb memories
I feel them like a splinter

Goddammit what did I do wrong, did I deserve it?
Was there some sick and twisted underlying purpose?

I'm drained out and calloused
Drop the dead weight and keep my balance
Take beauty, leave it rendered lifeless and perverted

I kick myself when I'm overwhelmed
And when I feel surrounded
I take a breath 'cause there's nothing left
That I can do about it

I just need to relax a little
I just need to relax a little
I just need to relax a little
I just need to relax a little