Emptiness

Here I am
Falling due to things I should've said
My difficulty to express myself became strong enough
'Till you don't even realize how much you matter to me
I’m choking within the feelings I hide
I still have hope I’ll find myself in this emptiness
But will I recognize myself when I find me?
It's like I stopped living and started to only survive

I just want you to be happy
Even if I am no longer the reason of your happiness

Here I am
Carrying the heaviest thoughts of my mind
Fighting to sleep night after night
But even sleep can't get closer
Even sleep can't get close to me
Because every time I close my eyes
All I feel is emptiness

I just want you to be happy
Even if I am no longer the reason of your happiness