Favorite Nightmare

You wear your heart on your sleeve
And I wear mine under your feet
That's just my way of being close to you
That's just my way
Scarlet letter wearer, harlot, terror bearer, let's go where the weather's fairing better, Hester, Prynn,
fester within, rest in my skin, yes, 21st century Jezebel to men, welcome them in to the web that you
spin, the deception is kin to the animal kingdom and I'm singing the song of how I gave you my best years,
knowing every word I say is falling on your deaf ears

I keep forgetting to forget about you
Look at what I've become now without you
No matter where I go, you're right there
My favorite nightmare

I'll relive the words and how each word hurt till I'm face first in the dirt, embracing what was, I miss
your lips and your kiss, wish to ignore this, wish to just forget bliss, forward this wish to the top of
my forget-it list, endorse it with my sin, the forbidden kiss, was I the fork in the midst of a road of
important decisions, cause you turned and detoured with pinpoint precision

I don't love you, could never be love when my stomach can hardly stomach you, jumping through hoops no
more, accustomed to a low score, adjusting to a soul-scorching array of assorted mortars, and I'm choking
on my own spite, on my own spit, I'm a lethargic lump of something called nothing, love is my punishment,
love is the worst gift, but the greatest too, the breath of fresh air that could suffocate you

(interlude)
Two steps away from a bullet in my brain
And I don't know, I don't know