Denial

Say time don't wait for pride
Mute and let it slide
Frozen in an old frame
Pretending I'm untouched
But my shadow's moving tired

Jump without thinking twice
I'm stuck in denial
Pain hits harder
I shaking on the floor
Saying back then, yeah I had control

Now in slow motion mode
I slow it down, read the signs
Play safe, keeping distance
Trying to read the map
My bones just won't calibrate
Holding on with all I have
God, why do I still fall
On the same floor again
Even when I guard myself
Trying to stand with pride
Oh my God, now I realize
Time left me behind

I'm not done (done, done)
Having fun (fun, fun)
Don't ask me why
I'll stay in denial
I'm chasing sky (high days)
I won't land (I won't fall)
Don't ask me why
I'll stay in denial

For every scar I get
It gives my heart a little more strength
Let's try again
If you call this growing up
I'm not ready at all
But what else can I do
Old memories pull me through
Make me harder than before
Now I think I can do this time
So you better hold my hand
Climb up on my shoulders
Let's drown together

I'm not done (done, done)
Having fun (fun, fun)
Don't ask me why
I'll stay in denial
I'm chasing sky (high days)
I won't land (I won't fall)
Don't ask me why
I'll stay in denial

I'll stay in denial