i'm sorry

Every other June is never hot, it's just as cold
Staying in my house all day, my skin could probably mold
Closing both my drapes and sit in silence while I scroll
Loving you is hard when I don't love me as a whole

Mom notices whenever I'm down I point my chin
She asks: Is something wrong?, but every time I always fib
People my age are married when I feel like a kid
I write all apologies to people on a list, so

I'm sorry for mistakes I've made, I need to watch my tone
I'm sorry letting people down, you didn't havе to go
I'm sorry for responding late, just tired of my phonе
And I'm sorry for never smiling but can't you see I'm broke?
I am out of luck when nothing goes the way I want
I wanted your opinion you didn't have to be so blunt
Telling you my secrets but you were so wrong to trust
Everything is hitting now not separate, all at once

And it hurts so much, in the dirt eating mud
Let me say it really sucks, I'm so close to giving up
And I really hate it here, this pain is severe
I'm so close from disappearing, yet again another year

Oh
Oh
Oh
Oh

There's a reason why I hide my face and my identity
People are so curious if I'm young or if I'm 23
Searching for the info and my God it just upsets me
Please just let it go, I have a life and I'm not telling
Show me some respect, there's a point that I'm unknown
Maybe I dislike my face or maybe I just don't
Music is my second life and my first is personal
Finding out the truth you come to realise, it just hurts to know

I'm sorry for mistakes I've made, I need to watch my tone
I'm always letting people down and every time they go
I'm sorry I'm on dnd just tired of my phone
And I'm sorry I don't smile, is it clear to you I'm broke?
I am out of luck when nothing goes the way I want
I play out all scenarios but they're too go to trust
Dodging my own hatred but I always fail to duck
Every problem's hitting me like a million bombs

And it hurts so much, in the dirt eating mud
Let me say it really sucks, I'm so close to giving up
And I really hate it here, this pain is severe
I'm this close from disappearing, I survive another year

(I'm sorry)