the war III

Resting my eyes, wonder if this is a dream
Barely get by, drips of blood stain through my fleece
Stumbled across some stones near the creek
Stopping, I pause and hear the angels sing
Gasping breaths of air, vision narrowed and it's blurred
Stop telling me to calm down, that only makes it worse
Sharpen, I got claws now, cutting through my shirt
This is not the end, just know soon I will return
Watching people die, I cannot look or see
Covering my eyes, I hear the distant screams
Plugging both my ears but the sound bleeds
Crying more tears than it is raining
Throw it all away, could tell you didn't care
Is that all you got? Love when it ain't fair
Move me out and crop the picture, never there
People love to talk but never wanna square

(Oh, God)

Tell me what you want, baby, tell me what you need
Going through it all, everything is out of reach
Engaging in a fight, everyone is scared of me
They will never know deep down I'm only weak
Please just hear me out, can you promise me one thing?
I can never win if you promise you'll never leave
Baby, I'm alone, does life have any meaning?
Falling through the cracks and slipping right through the seams

Stepping on the gas, quarter of a tank
I got a ways to go, but I know I have the strength
Not in crowds or packs, two if even that
I fight all by myself, capable of what I have

Go in, pissed off, risking my life
Stranded, panic-tracking the time
Dangerous, hatred, kill and divide
This is not what I had impli—
Bleeding out, mission abort
Loose ties, cutting the cords
Stable, carry support
No, I don't care if this all distorts
Contradicting yourself, you make no sense
I try to get me to talk, but I'm so dense
Shoot my thoughts at the floor, and think again
My depression is war, a chain of events
You made a mistake of losing this
Now I feel unworthy of so many things
I continue to grow, thanks to a screen
And continue to fly, feeling free

Trusting my gut, made the right choice
When is it time to stop feeling destroyed?
Bottom of the ocean, fell into a void
I kinda like it here, no sign of any noise
Fighting for my life, this is "the war III"
Letting go of souls who were so close to me
Aching won't stop my heart from leaving
Charging with no hope but I have to believe

Believe
Believe
Believe, oh, I need to believe (heylog)