Garden Statement

The traffic's backed for miles
On these quiet suburban roads
While the rubbernecking strangers
Are dieing to see these victims wounds
Cause he's all alone
His notebooks and poems
Well there's something grave
Where he wrote about this secret
That became his lyrics of no intent to show.

Well we give we get
But it's all for nothing
It's all for nothing
We try we insist
That i gave everything
But it's all for nothing.

So the panic sets and cycles
His mind for restless sleep
And while the bloodsucking leeches
Contaminate every line they read
Just leave him alone in this dark room
This white sheet, his tightly wrapped cocoon.

Cause it's no secret
I fucking need this
Like i don't need anyone.

It's like i'm falling asleep with my eyes open
Shutting down and off the lights
Cause after all of this it's all or nothing
Still i wouldn't try to.

I'll fall asleep with my eyes open
Shutting down and off the lights
Cause after all of this it's all or nothing
Still i wouldn't try to fight

So let me drown so i can breathe again
I'm through choking and suffocating
On alter egos and alter motives
Just weigh you down and take control of
The way you are and the things that you need
The life you live and the dreams that you dream
Sudden blur all in slow motion
They broke you down and now your broken
It's sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but without the beauty
So i stopped watching i stopped caring
I lost all interest and i stopped wearing
These plastic smiles i've washed my hands clean
Forget that you forgot about me
And i'm living like the big city feeling
It's better than suburban dreaming.

I'm believing all the claims that angels
Talk shit on me
Like i don't know who
My real friends are anymore
Don't wanna know you anymore.

And it's sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but without the beauty
So i stopped watching i stopped caring
Spilling ink and spill your guts again.

Fall asleep with my eyes open
Shutting down and off the lights
Cause i feel all of this is all or nothing
Still i wouldn't try to fight.

And the lights are on you again
Like the sight you never saw
And he bleeds for you
And he lets you out
Cause you dont know anymore.