Catastrophic Lover

I never want to be the one
To pull the trigger on the gun
When it's time

I'm really good at holding on
Even when I know it's wrong
At least it's mine

And I always seem to get off track
Picking up all the slack
I know it doesn't serve me

Bittersweet distraction
Licking your wounds tending to mine
Harmful chain reaction
I'm bleeding myself out all of the time

Pull and push and pull
We were not made for each other
I'll still think of you fondly
My catastrophic lover

I'm trying really hard to find
All the things I left behind before you
I don't know where to start
You have left my heart in two

Never gonna get it back
Picking up all the slack
I know you don't deserve me

Bittersweet distraction
Licking your wounds tending to mine
Harmful chain reaction
I'm bleeding myself out all of the time

Pull and push and pull
We were not made for each other
I'll still think of you fondly
My catastrophic lover

There's been a change now
A pale amber glow
I'm bleeding
I'm screaming
I'm waiting for you to let me go

Bittersweet distraction
Licking your wounds tending to mine
Harmful chain reaction
I'm bleeding myself out all of the time

Pull and push and pull
We were not made for each other
I'll still think of you fondly
My catastrophic lover
I'll still think of you fondly
My catastrophic lover