Disassociated

I want to be dissociated
I don't want to care
I want to feel like a dream
I don't want you to remind me I'm here
I want to float in a river of my thoughts I don't want anyone polluting my water
I want to lay like a leaf that's fallen from a tree

I can only continue living outside myself
I don't want to be here physically
I don't want to be here mentally
This will do for now

What do I need to unchain my spirit
How much of this do I need to feel emotionless
When will I start to feel like nothing
Will this help me find myself
I can only continue living outside myself
I don't want to be here physically
I don't want to be here mentally
This will do for now
Now that I've become more cynical
And I hate everyone, including myself
Like a plug I want to be disconnected
I just want to power out
I don't want to feel here