When the Light is Gone

Was it real
Or just a sweet dream?
A bird above the sky
Calling through the blue

Flame and sea
Light and air
For one fragile moment
Everything was beautiful

Will you ever forgive me
For being who I am?
Will I ever forgive myself
For what I could not understand?

The world keeps turning
In an endless now
I read those words somewhere
Blurred and far somehow

Was it real
Or only a dream?
Was it life
Or just surviving?

Resilience
Or surrender
A quiet wound
I still remember

More than blood
More than the perfect bond
A little understanding
When the light is gone
Through Sun and rain
We learn what still remains
The rest is only hunger
Wearing different names

I drank a frozen memory
Pale and distant on my tongue
It tasted like spring returning
With autumn in its blood

Maybe beauty only finds us
When we're too tired to run
Maybe forgiveness is a doorway
We keep closing on ourselves

Was it real
Or only a dream?
Was it love
Or just the need for meaning?

A tender light
A bitter weather
A broken self
Still asking to be better

More than blood
More than the perfect bond
A little understanding
When the light is gone

Through Sun and rain
We learn what still remains
The rest is only hunger
Wearing different names

Forgive me
For the shape I became
Forgive me
For hiding from my name

If I am only passing
Let me pass with open hands
If this is only living
Let me learn to understand

Real or dream
Life or existence
Love or grief
Forgiveness or distance

I am still here
Breathing through the ache
Trying to hold
What does not break

More than blood
More than the perfect bond
A little understanding
When the light is gone

Through Sun and rain
We learn what still remains
The rest is only hunger
Wearing different names

Was it real
Or just a sweet dream?

Flame and sea
Light and air

For one fragile moment
Everything was beautiful