Young Diaries

Here, here are the pages of diaries
Being torn out
And these, these are the silent memories of mine
Like blood being poured out
I watched you, I was behind you as
You bred me, you fed me, you led me
But just as soon I’m in a family that’s broken apart
By your adulterous heart

Oh God, so carelessly I have been drawn
From your arms
Carry me to your graceful place that vengeance just can’t replace

These mirrors reveal nothing but regret
Such remindful regret
I can’t help but to write these young diaries
So hard to forget
I look back
I see your hand lack mine
But I can remember just fine that
Your lips were poisoned
Your arms false refuge
Your heart, a deceitful deluge

Oh God, so carelessly I have been drawn
From your arms
Carry me to your graceful place that vengeance just can’t replace

I'm reaching out
I can’t do this anymore
I don’t remember who I used to be
All I see is rage
The blood of my enemies of their face
Humiliation engaged
Everything in me that I hate, regurgitates
You were just a face
A pitiful soul that once had a dream
Tell me again because I can’t, and I don’t believe
A God that loves me?! I can’t even love myself

I release you from my wrath
(You and I are forgiven)
As I release me from my past
He’s now breaking the grip of my heart
(You and I are forgiven)
With blood so innocently shed for my part
(This is all, this is where this all ends)