No Hope

So here I am again back inside this tiny room
Spending most of my days avoiding any face I know

In the end I always seem to get here to calm down and try to rest
But instead I overthink too many thoughts go through my head
I’m so sorry to admit I’ve fallen back again to this
Lonely cycle that I can’t seem to escape

Am I disappointment?
Do I still waste your time?

How long will I feel unwanted I just want to feel alive
How much longer will I stay here continuing wasting my time

Why can’t I change
Why is this me?
I can’t accept this reality
I hate being me

Back again inside this tiny room
Lost again
Back again inside this tiny room
Lost again

I always tell myself the same thing everyday
Tomorrow will I be the best version of me
But I fail each time I just fall back again
No hope
This is who I am

I’m such a disappointment
I keep on wasting your time

How long will I be unwanted I just want to feel alive

Always will I be unhappy no hope left for my life
Always will I be unhappy no hope left for my life