Panic Attack

Why?
Do you punish me with everything I see, and everything I am?
Why?
Don't you fill the hole and take away the pain?
Why?
Do I wait so quietly, wait so patiently, still my breath to die.
Why?
Won't this ever end?

My guilty eyes have seen too much.
Relax as my nightmares come true and I start to cry.
All this fighting all this heartache,
never wondered why dreams don't true and colors fade;
I'm always told to bad.
Pick me up to push me down and wake up in a sweat.
Wait, much calmer now and it seems so clear,
why invest so much in life.
Wait.

My reasons thin;
it happens again;
I can't fight this anymore.
Shot!

I'm ripped again;
I'm gripped again;
I know I'm at fault.

Blame.
Myself for everything I see.
All my life I've never been, and all
I've wanted were the simple things.
I don't need you anymore, I never needed you away.