Reason To Care

It's happening again, I'm losing everything I cared about
Even though they are still around me, I'm describing this
Among the hate and hurt 'cause it the moment
It could seem like there is nothing worse, I've got words
On paper but solutions, I could never learn
No one's ever seen me at my very worst
No ones ever asked me how I'm doing like they're checking in
Maybe I'm the one to blame when I think about it
I don't do it either
Guess it works both ways, now I see it, how I should have seen it
What I could have done, told you how I really felt
I wonder if it would've helped if you told me now
What you told me then
All the things you wanted to get out when you were in pain
Betting on my life I wouldn't feel the same
I know what you really wanna say
Do you wish that everything was different? I don't feel the same
Wishing I could look past what I lost and never stayed
Now I'm living in between trying to figure out this pain
I'm reminded why I stay inside I don't wanna leave
They're telling me I need to work on it, I'll take the leap
But It's difficult when all you see is bad in everything
Yeah how can I show love when that word to me stings
And how can I be loved when the person I think that I am
Is really how they see me, most days I don't wanna be me
False hope, living that way, for the most part, no it's never easy

I need a reason to care
I need a reason to care
Without this, I'm lost in the mirror
I'm just a lost interference
I need a reason to care
Give me a reason to care
I need a reason to wake up
That's more just selling a record to them
I need a reason to care
I need a reason to care
Without this, I'm lost in the mirror
I'm just a lost interference
I need a reason to care
Give me a reason to care
I need a reason to wake up
That's more just selling a record to them

Nothing has just changed just dreams made real
And it feels how it did when I started this
Something so small might be a big deal
'Cause I know what we had and I know what Is happening
Mind playing tricks gotta step back
Take a look at everything that we built from scratch
Scared that it’ll never be enough
What I have and what I am, do they really understand?
Will, it ever make sense, when there is much sense
To be made of this
People come and go but the music always stick
Wishing we could talk but it has been a while
Tryna figure out what is wrong when it's been a couple of years
Since we last spoke feeling like a whole new man
That you don't know
You tell me that you care so much but you don't show it
What you tryna do to me feels like I'm losing it
I don't want to do this again so truthfully
I don't want to care today
I've been thinking lately what I've been afraid to say
What if all of this was never meant to stay?
And everything I'm feeling now? Will follow me to the grave
I don't fully understand what I've been feeling today
I'm tryna deal with it alone and that's my biggest mistake
We all struggle, doesn't matter who you are we're the same
Overtime it's all blur and it's beginning to fade, why?

I need a reason to care
I need a reason to care
Without this, I'm lost in the mirror
I'm just a lost interference
I need a reason to care
Give me a reason to care
I need a reason to wake up
That's more just selling a record to them
I need a reason to care
I need a reason to care
Without this, I'm lost in the mirror
I'm just a lost interference
I need a reason to care
Give me a reason to care
I need a reason to wake up
That's more just selling a record to them