I'm Hopeful

Broken and hollow, a former self of the man I once was
No hope, no love, only fear and regret
Still searching for a God that I know don't exist

How are you? I'm fine
Don't worry yourself, you don't have the time
So move on, leave me behind
While I'm looking for a reason to live my life

So I'll scream and I'll shout
Until my lungs give out, I'm not running, no, no
I've been conflicted and scared
But was never prepared to make the choices that I made

I won't go and give myself away like this
I've been here before
I don't need you
I can't hide behind this mask anymore

This loneliness is overwhelming me
I tried to close my eyes, but I can't sleep
From disassociating two hearts
That once oh they beat together

One was mine
But both were yours
And one laying abandoned on the floor
But I'm hopeful

I won't go and give myself away like this
I've been here before
I don't need you
I can't hide behind this mask anymore

These friends now I lack
Their knives in my back
Couldn't take it anymore

These friends now I lack
Oh, their knives in my back
Wish I stabbed them in yours

But in the end, we're human
Yeah I've made my mistakes
But how can you say your conscience is so clear?

I've been chasing affection from a fear of being alone
But it's your attention that I feel I'm owed
Cause I'm empty inside trying to fill the void in my heart

Over and over
The cycle doesn't break
The cycle doesn't break

And I know that you've been there too
It reverberates
Leaving you to feel so insignificant

It was in my demise
That led me to do the things that I have done
It's nothing personal
And it haunts me to this day

Do you think I'm proud of myself?
Do you think I'm the man I want to be? I'm
Screaming don't hurt me but I'm the one hurting myself
I won't go and give myself away like this

I don't need you
I can't hide behind this mask anymore
I won't go and give myself away like this

I've been here before
I don't need you
I can't hide behind this mask anymore

These friends now I lack
And their knives in my back
I won't go and give myself away like this