Balance.

Woke up in a quiet way, just listening
To the world around come alive, oh once again
And I know that eternal recurrence
Oh, how my mind begins and ends in all of its moments
And I wonder if my will is bound to them?
Why even try if I will have to know
All the bad yet again?

So I go down to the river
And I implore him down on my knees
Just change a thread in my pattern
Oh, blessed be, I try and try
Just to fall again
But if you can't change fate
Just change me instead
Just change me instead

For I feel everything
Oh, everything and I am terrified

Oh, down by the river I get angry
Of all the things I've done to not feel
Am I where the eye cannot see?
And I'm so frightened by my wickedness
And the hate in me!
Oh, to survive so many things
Just to fall in muck up to my knees
And I cry for I'm afraid
'cause I can't make this feeling go away
Away
Away

So I throw my hands up
And I yell at my lord
Why did you burden me with this feeling for?
For I feel everything
The good and bad in me
And I fear which way my soul is leaning towards
But then I hear a quiet whisper still
I am because I feel

So I throw up my hands once more
Maybe this burden is just my very soul
And of all my challenges
To keep my art alive and never learn to fear myself
And life is uncertain
But no matter the way I find it
I must find faith in myself
And I can't prevent the pain
But this recurrence states the good in life too
Shall always remain

And I will know it again someday

And then I hear a quiet whisper still
I am because I feel