Picking Up The Pieces

I, I just want to feel whole
But the sad truth is
I don't even know what whole is anymore
Now I feel like I have nothing left
But I know that I'm worth so much more than this (so much more than this)
I've spent a lifetime listening to people questioning
The choices I make, the path I take
Suffocating my will to live
But I won't break

I don't want to lose control
I've struggled my entire life
To let it all just go
And I'm not perfect
But I am not worthless
I'm just trying to piece myself, back together again
Back together again

Find the pieces
Connect the loss
Erase the people
Or prove them wrong. (I'll prove you wrong, I'll prove you all wrong)

I don't want to lose control
I've struggled my entire life
To let it all just go
And I'm not perfect
But I am not worthless
I'm just trying to piece myself, back together again
Back together again

This heart burns
For comfort
This heart burns
For purpose

My steady hands begin to shake
My nerves react unpleasant ways
I toss and turn, I'm twitching
Addiction is sinking
There's no more pain as I blackout
Consuming substance to free myself
Rescue me, save me from myself
Time only heals so much