This Apathy

Can't you see that
This apathy
Growing inside of me
Far worse then my anxiety
Now overbearing, my bodies tearing apart

From the inside out
I'm overfilled with doubt
My minds the enemy I want to cut it out
Instead I drown myself
At my free will
Won't someone please either end me or save me from this apathy?

Save me from this apathy
It's hard to face life alone
One day I'll find you
Just hold tight my love

I can't take it, take it, no I can't take it
This is a part of me that brings me down
So low, how far will I fall, how far?

I was never prepared for this
A personal hell with my own therapist
I know that my heart is my weakness
As long as it's beating it's what keeps me seeking

I'm searching for you, spitting out lies but you deserve the truth
Now fear is haunting every move, consuming, consuming

I can't take it, take it, no I can't take it
This is a part of me that brings me down
So low, how far will I fall, how far will I fall?
As I keep searching, for the person
I feel my sanity just slipping away
I'm losing my mind, a matter of time
Before I take the fall and leap from the edge

Don't sympathise
I'll pay for all my lies
Don't let me fall
I'll right my wrongs
I swear I'll try
Don't sympathise
I'll pay for all my lies
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall

I swear I'll change
If it's what I must do, or walk away again just like I always do
Forgetting everything, the broken promises, should I just take this step?

I can't take it, take it, no I can't take it
This is a part of me that brings me down
So low, how far will I fall, how far will I fall?
As I keep searching, for the person
I feel my sanity just slipping away
I'm losing my mind, a matter of time
Before I take the fall and leap from the edge