Nonexistence

I thought, for a moment
That I could reach you, so distant
With all the strength I have within
But only pain drowns me again
Trying to rise above the surface
With the little of me that still has purpose
I thought a smile would make me whole
But even smiling, I lacked control

I felt the emptiness surround me
Your scent in the air, it set me free
For a moment, you were here with me
But soon enough, you ceased to be

You were never really there
Just a dream I built with care
I created you to find my way
But in your gaze, I lost my place
Just a little more
Of you, my love, just a little more

I searched for you in fleeting memories
In cold streets, in endless miseries
Without knowing that you had gone
And with you, the part of me withdrawn
And then I saw the naked truth
You were never here, just a distant muse
Made to shine only for me
Only to fade into obscurity

I felt the emptiness surround me
Your scent in the air, it set me free
For a moment, you were here with me
But soon enough, you ceased to be

You were never really there
Just a dream I built with care
I created you to find my way
But in your gaze, I lost my place
Just a little more
Of you, my love, just a little more

Now I see, I haven’t breathed in so long
You were the echo of my own sad song
I made you up to feel alive
Only to see I could not survive

You were never really there
Just a dream I built with care
I created you to find my way
But in your gaze, I lost my place
Just a little more
Of you, my love, just a little more

Just a little more
Of what never was, just a little more