Drift

My thoughts are out of focus
They drift among the dust
And stir up my emotions
Which I could never trust

Covered by erosion
They're sunken one by one
So I swallowed all the ocean
Yet all I could taste was rust

Break your promise and look in my diary
What you find might be downright surprising
Page on page of increasing anxiety
I've been trying to hide

Even though it breaks my heart
I will find a way to cope
Even though I've lost my spark
I will find a way to glow

I don't know if I'm enough
What if I am losing touch?
'Cause you were never meant to know
Yeah, you were never meant to know

I thought I saw a lotus
Dwindling at dusk
It told me I'm a poet
Though I think it misjudged

It then began to open
And sitting in my palm
Was every little moment
I had come undone

How am I meant to take this shit lightly?
Knowing life has an unknown expiry
Wasting words in this dumb fucking diary
Where my honesty lies

Even though it breaks my heart
I will find a way to cope
Even though I've lost my spark
I will find a way to glow

I don't know if I'm enough
What if I am losing touch?
'Cause you were never meant to know
Yeah, you were never meant to know

My thoughts are out of focus
My thoughts are out of focus
My thoughts are out of focus
'Cause I don't wanna lose you to

Tell me why I feel so useless
Am I enough?
Wake me when I'm enough
'Cause I don't wanna lose you too

Tell me why I feel so useless
Am I enough?
Wake me when I'm enough
Even though it breaks my heart

I will find a way to cope
Even though I've lost my spark
I will find a way to glow
I don't know if I'm enough

What if I am losing touch?
'Cause you were never meant to know
Yeah, you were never meant to know
My thoughts are out of focus