Illusive Dream

Tormented by my addictions, you left me alone in despair
The husband and father that I am no more
Sometimes I wish I didn't care
This darkness surrounds me

My heart is blinded, I can no longer see
Within my soul, agony remains
I try so hard to forget the man I used to be

Lost in the silence of what I can't find
Left to remember what I left behind
I can't take back what I have done
My once hidden darkness has finally won

Seems I've lost everything that I ever loved
All for this illusive dream
That I would not let go

I gaze at my own reflection and I hate the man that I see
I know I'm the one to blame for this darkened misery
So now what is next for me, where do I go from here?
What kind of destiny awaits for me?
I can't escape this fear

Seems I've lost everything that I ever loved
All for this illusive dream that I would not let go

So if this is the end, I want to know who I am
I lost the one thing that I love the most
And I know I'm the reason why

So God if you can hear me now
Is there any hope for me?
Or have I gone too far on this road
Is it too late to be the man that I should be

It's the illusive dream
I cannot hold on to the illusive dream

I want to know what's the point of this
This lie that I've lived, I am fading away
This pain inside of me, it never goes away
The sorrow I hide, there's nothing I can say

It's the illusive dream
I cannot hold on to the illusive dream