Meant To Be

Was meant to be
I live an hour from the town where I grew up
It's been a decade since the first time I threw up
Still feel the pressure, hyperventilating
Over numbers on a page that could make or break me

60 minutes from the house of my first love
30 miles from where I threw my first punch
A cracked rib and the taste of the pavement
Heard a voice say: Yeah you'll make it, if you just
Take it slow, no, I wanna speed up
Towards a goal I could never dream up at 15

But what do you know at 15? Now I
Stare at the reflection looking back at me
Praying to a God this isn't make believe
Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace
Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be
Every time I look, I see a different face
But I don't wanna change depending on the place

Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace
Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be
Graduated, got a degree
In a field, in a city I'll never see again
And I'm still wondering when
I'll feel

Happy with the choices I've made
The people I've lost, the bridges I break
The stakes, they seem higher now
So far from the ground, I should
Take it slow, no, I wanna speed up
Towards a goal, I could never dream up at 15
But what do you know at 15? Now I
Stare at the reflection looking back at me
Praying to a God this isn't make believe

Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace
Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be
Every time I look, I see a different face
But I don't wanna change depending on the place
Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace
Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be
I just wanna quiet all the voices in my head

Saying: You won't ever make it in the end
I just wanna block out all the pain and the hate
From the people I used to call my friends
I just wanna rest but the stress causes pain in my chest
Yeah, making it hard to breath
I just wanna wake up in the morning and be proud of me, now I
Stare at the reflection looking back at me

Praying to a God this isn't make believe
Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace
Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be
Every time I look I see a different face
But I don't wanna change depending on the place
Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace
Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be