I Used To Know

I used to know
Who I was before you
Now I'm picking up the pieces
That you left behind

I used to know exactly where I stood
Had my walls up, thought that made me good
Then you came around with promises so sweet
Made me question everything I used to believe
Gave you all my secrets in the dark
Let you rearrange my guarded heart
Now I'm staring at my ceiling wondering why
I let you make me someone I don't recognize

But maybe losing me was worth it
All the pain was somehow perfect
'Cause now I see
Who I'm supposed to be

I used to know who I was
Before I gave my heart away
Lost myself in your twisted love
But I'm grateful now (surprise)
'Cause I'm stronger in my broken
And you're just a lesson learned
Won't even miss the hurt
I used to know, now I know better

I used to know, now I know better

Three in the morning, scrolling through our texts
Wondering how I missed all the red flags next
You had me thinking I was hard to love
When really you were just not enough
Therapy sessions, learning how to breathe
Without your weight upon my chest so heavy
Every day gets easier to see
The girl I was is who I'm meant to be

And I wrote you letters that I'll never send
Said things I wish I could take back again
But every scar you left has made me strong
I was right, you were wrong

Now I dance alone in my apartment
Singing songs you'll never understand
I used to know
Now I just know

I used to know who I was
Before I lost myself in you
Gave my power to somebody else
But I'm grateful, it's the truth
'Cause I'm fearless in my healing
And you're nothing but a ghost
Don't even haunt my dreams
I used to know, now I'm free

I used to know
I know, I know, I know myself
Better, I used to know
Used to know, now I know

I used to know
(And now I really know)
Who I am when no one's watching
And I like her more than ever
She's exactly who I'm meant to be
I used to know
Now I just grow